Sweet Innocent Times Continued

Some time soon after having the second baby, my then husband and I were watching tv. He turned on a music video with a woman, a man with blond hair and two beautiful little girls. He says "so what do you think?" I said " I think its great, they're like baby Destiny's Child or something." He interupted "so what would you say if I told you that their living on the streets with their mother who is a prostitute?" I said "that's horrible they need to be somewhere safe. They need to get some help." He interrupted "so do you think the children should be taken from their mother?" "Well I don't know. Does she do drugs? I..." He insisted well should the children be taken from their mother?" I stuttered shaking my head not really sure needing more information. He said "well do you think the woman in the video is a nice woman? Do you think shes a good choice?" "She appears to be nice. But you know if shes okay, if her background checks out and if she knows the family sure." I responded. Turns out both the woman in the video is me and the woman living on the streets. Only difference is I'm just homeless. I avoid prostituting. And time is the difference. IN that scenerio was me then watching tv, me NOW in the story and me much father in the future in the video. In the video my hair is just longer, skin lighter and of course I and my babies look a little older because of the time that passes. So I guess these people playing games will give the children back to me. Since they were wrong again.

Which reminds me of the time when I was a teen and I was watching music videos when my brother came in with his favorite device, the remote control and turned to some channel. He asked me so do you know who that guy is? I said no. They trying to fortell my future trying to figure out who was who so that they could steal my money and my stuff. I think it was either one of my adult children or someone who looks close to him. In the future.

Then there was the time when I was a small child. The television was off. In the middle of the television I saw a vision. The television was a floor modle wide screen you know the kind from the 70's. The screens appearance as I recall, showed that the televsion was diffenantly off. The vision showed me what happened to Dr. Mr. Luther King one time when he was in police custody. It was not a pretty site. Seeing him fight back while he was surronded and out numbered. And as I recall there was no cable or VHS or DVD device connected to the television.

Then there was the time in my late teens when my other brother popped in a video tape. It was showing me all kinds of things beyond my experiences. He skipped through the video saying it was too much for me then I was too young for the content. But from what I can recall. They used something probably something evil to foretell my future and put it on video. As I can recall now some of those things have happened but should have been avoided. Then some other of those things I have avoided and others of them are just made up. For example I walked up a flight of stairs instead of running and falling down a flight of stairs. And the two lesbian girls in the video non of them are me. So why bother me with that. Whatever device they used confused me with someone else.. I hate feeling like "but they all look alike." So they must act alike so it must be her or close to what she likes. When actually its like wearing Sikes instead of Nikes. Instead of "just do it" its "don't do it." Never did it.